insecure

What is this insecure feeling that everyone have ?

That what that you have done or tried to do will never be good enough, will never be impressive enough , or at worse, will never to be bothered enough to convince, to be recognise, or at least, to be remember.

That the past has taught you that, what a fucking great time of your life that you are having now might wouldn't last long. And you know you do try to cherish things, but you will still feel that you hadn't cherish it enough yet until it is over.

That you know a little too much of everything, you do not know where should you be standing. You become selfish.

That you will go around and play, making yourself believe in short terms, periods, but you know one day you will be going back to your roots, and to realise where is actually your real roots ?

that to witness what had happened or is happening to the people around you, you realised eventhough you pray hard enough, but who knows, it might still happen to you one day

that a harmless sentence from a friend can brings you down, pissed you off. They will never know what you've been through and how you tried to change things. In the same time, how a harmless word from you can bring someone down, stir things up.

that you are always asking for more, asking too much

insecure.

After a while, you feel numb
After a while, you can't be bothered yourself too much
After a while, you realised sometimes you are not being yourself enough